Though I was not from a filthy rich family, I was surrounded, outside my family setting, by "norms" that wealth and social status defined a person – a typical, twisted and even poisonous Hong Kong stereotype now that I look back.

Little did I wonder that it was fear who drove me to hang on to those beliefs. Because of such fear, I became a miser (吝嗇鬼) and even when I gave, deep in my mind I expected something in return.

Then my world started to change. In my high school years, my family moved to a district that was deemed by my peers as an area for the poor (a typical despicable attitude for some from so-called elite schools). I didn't like the idea of moving, but as a kid there was no means for me to express why I didn't like the move, and even if there was, there was nothing I could do. Within the first 6 months, my grandfather passed away. Three years later, one of my parents left home, and I scored below par at the HKCEE even though I passed all subjects (the two events were unrelated as the latter occurred before the former).

Later I was lucky to have been given an opportunity to study overseas. Because of the drastic changes in my high school years I became extremely against hanging around with people from Hong Kong and only make friends with English speaking people. Albeit a negative attitude, an upside was my improvement in conversational English. Another positive outcome was that I became opened up through acquaintances to alternative healing and spirituality practices.

This attitude carried on when I came back to Hong Kong where I got to be involved in new age activities. However, as soon as I returned to Hong Kong the past beliefs about wealth and status came back. The first few years of my working was not very rewarding and I found myself depressed about having a lowly paid job.

In hindsight, I now realize it was to do with my miserliness (吝嗇) – because I didn't want to give, little returned to me. At the time I blamed it on the bad economy after 1997 but deep down it was my fear of losing a job that hindered me from moving on, either to a job elsewhere in Hong Kong or overseas. Another effect of my miserliness was that I even stayed at the same place I used to hate as a teenager (after my other family members moved on either due to death or setting up families of their own) because I didn't have to pay a dime.

As time went by, rather than taking pride in my profession (as I did initially), I became more interested in a voluntary organization which made better use of my language skills and I even took up some key leadership positions. I also wrote for a now defunct English magazine on a freelance basis to derive satisfaction which I could not gain from the job.

Instead, because of my seeming success in my voluntary work, my self-pride kicked in (as a result of my old attitude on wealth and status) and it was one of the reasons that prompted me to study law part-time. I eventually quit my job to switch to the legal profession, thinking that it would be plain-sailing from then on. However, I encountered even bigger obstacles. My work was often criticized as sub-standard and gradually I lost much of my confidence and became very low-esteemed.

Thoughts began to emerge: "I want to leave, I want to leave!" However, there seemed to be no way out and my fear blocked me from leaving. It seemed a repeat of what happened in my previous job, only this time depression got the upper hand of me - I was diagnosed with cancer. Shocking! The doctor said I had to have the tumour removed. The only solace was that the cancer cells had not spread.

It took me a long time to recover my strength after the surgery. Moreover, my inner organs became very sensitive. I had regular follow-ups with my doctor but nothing was found. I was told that the sensitivity was all in my head. Seeing that there was no remedy in traditional medicine, I began to immerse myself in meditation and only meditation after work. It was a very relaxing experience but as time went by my brain became a little mellowed which could be an impediment especially to someone who has to use his language and analytical skills at work all the time.


Then, through the introduction of a close friend, I became acquainted with Amita. I put on the pccm stickers and immediately there were improvements in my physical well-being. I then spoke to an energy viewer at Amita and who suggested that I tailor-make my own configuration of pccm. With her viewing of the energy structure of my body, she explained to me how different types and layers of emotions (known as 層 面 in Chinese) had been stored in my body as consciousness as a result of incidents which happened in the past.

I then took some courses to better understand the concept of singularity and how the Amita products work. It was a real eye-opener as I was introduced to the concepts of how one person interacts with another in a scientific way and on a DNA level!

I also learnt that diseases were caused by negative emotions which were transformed into consciousness stored in my organs through incidents with others, which would be best dealt with at the energy level. The surgery to remove my tumour, whilst successfully having eliminated the imminent danger, was a last resort, as the negative energy was not really dealt with and the consciousness which caused the tumour could be shifted to be stored elsewhere in the body.

I have been using the products for about six months now and very gradually I am seeing changes. Through the energy modulations I realized how black and white I was in my thinking in the past and would even go to the extreme (偏激) just to accomplish very little. The other day I bumped into someone I have not seen for a long time and she commented that I looked more youthful than before!

At the home front I have already moved away from the place I stayed for years even before knowing Amita. After studying the concept of singularity, I gained a better understanding of my attachment to the land I live on and how my home could be detrimental to my well-being if the energy of the land is not compatible to mine.

Work-wise, I now realize that it was my anxiety, with the fear that I may not do well, that triggered anger and frustration in others, which then resulted in sub-standard quality of work. My own fear was projected to others and they bounced the energy beams back to me like a mirror. Contrary to popular belief, when a person having an attitude against us is not necessarily due to the prejudice of that person. Rather it was the result of our anxiety being reflected in that person that caused the chain reaction.

Another big discovery was that my miserliness, which resulted in small-mindedness (小氣), had stifled my personal growth. My next step will be for me to be more considerate of others.

With this understanding, together with the modulation aided by the use of Amita products, I now experience better relationships with others and I am now more focused on getting things done. There is still a long way to go yet I am sure I am on the right track. It is a blessing to have been acquainted with Amita. No one can be sure how long one will live in this lifetime but I am privileged to have this awakening so that I can live a more meaningful life in my remaining years with joy, confidence and passion.

I wish also to thank all staff at Amita who showed me the way of selflessness and compassion!


R Ko, January 2010.